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拙 火 經 驗 與 蛻 變----------- 生機飲食老師，瑜珈老師，新加坡人
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Kundalini has always been a book concept to me. My
only understanding of it never transcended beyond the
pages of words written by Yoga Gurus/Masters. In modern
society, especially in our city of Singapore, Kundalini
is definitely not a household term.
我對拙火的概念總是從書中得知的。僅有的認知不外乎得自瑜珈大師的論述。
在現代社會，尤其我所處的新加坡，拙火一辭更不會是拿來話家常。
For those who have never heard of the term Kundalini
before, this may actually sound mystical, spiritual
or even religious. Actually, it is simply a term used
to describe the basic energy lying dormant in everybody's
spinal root. This energy moves upwards in a spiral manner,
thus named after the ancient snake goddess Shakti Kundalini.
Proper Yogic awakening involves intensive cleansing
through Asanas, Kriyas, Mantras and Pranayams. This
is the safest route because the energy liberated can
then be directed in the correct action, with purposeful
alignment - for the greater good of mankind.
對那些過去從未耳聞拙火的人而言，確實會讓人聯想是神秘的、靈性的、甚至帶宗教色彩。事實上它是潛藏在每個人脊椎尾端，在古代被稱為夏克堤，上升猶如蛇的一股能量。瑜珈行者會運用體位法、清潔法、梵唱和各種生命能量控制法，不斷地凈化自己，在適合的時候和對的人而覺醒，會是最安全的方法，因為能量可以正確地被釋放出來。
The first time I felt the spiral energy shoot up the
spine, was when the Kundalini Master(master Rong) had
her hands on me. It was an intentional awakening, although
I had absolutely no idea how it would feel like. In
fact, the moment she came near me, I felt a swaying
from deep within. When she was laying her hands on my
spine, I felt the urge to rock like a top!
第一次感覺到這股呈螺旋狀的能量從脊椎爆發上來，是拙火老師（黃蓉)將她的手放在我身上時。那是有意識的一種覺醒，雖然我本來完全是狀況外。事實上，在她靠近我時，我就已經感知到體內深層的蠢蠢欲動。而當她的手搭放在我的背脊上時，我感到一股推升力道如陀螺般直衝到頭頂。
Initially, I thought she was deliberately swaying me
with her hands. I resisted to urge to sway and stilled
my body, but the suppressment felt uncomfortable. After
she left me and moved on to the next person in the yantra,
there was a tingling feeling of cool electricity flowing
up my spine in a circular manner.
剛開始，我以為她是刻意用她的手讓我晃動，我還故意去抗拒，並身體坐正，但隨後就發現抑制它是不舒服的。就在她離開我轉至圍坐一圈的下一位學員後，另一股冷電流呈漩渦狀，沿著脊椎震顫竄起。
After that meditation session, life was never the same.
經過那次的靜坐經驗後，生活不再一樣了。
Slowly, I made notes about my behavior, moods, appetites,
character and Yoga progress through observations. Some
of the records I've made included the following:我慢慢地紀錄下對自己行為舉止、情緒、食慾、個性的觀察。摘錄如下：
1) There was a heightened, almost unbearable state
of awareness. It is also the same dimension that we
can realise true bliss and pure love exist. It hurts
to see people suffering, unhappy and troubled. Everything
became so crystal clear, that it was painful to just
Be. Although Swami told me to limit meditation to no
more than 5 min each day, I exceeded that by far. Because
meditation was the only portal of solace for me at that
time.
有一種更強烈地，甚至是不可置信的覺醒狀態。它就像是來到一個空間，在這裡我們覺知到狂喜和真愛是存在的。看到受苦不快樂和煩惱的人時，自己也會感到痛心。每一件事情變得如水晶般清澈明晰，以致於單是感受到存在就讓我感受到痛苦。雖然畢迪安納上師告訴我要限制冥想的時間每天不要超過5分鐘，但我總是超出限定時間許多。因為在那時候，靜坐冥想是我獲得慰藉的唯一出處。
2) I had a ferocious appetite, and started craving
foods which I've never eaten in years. But once I see
it, I lose the desire to eat it! And every time I was
hungry and put something in my mouth, there is a feeling
of nausea as if a energy force is exploding out of me.
Now mind you, I was far from feeling sick. This is not
the normal kind of nausea you feel when you are sick
or having too much alcohol. It is more like a feeling
of exhilaration, something like the time when I got
my exam results and discovered I scored better than
expected. Something like pleasantly nervous...
那陣子我有很驚人的食慾，並且渴望我從未吃過的食物。但當我看到食物時，我就失去了吃的慾望了。每當我飢餓時，一旦把食物放到嘴巴，就出現一股作噁的感覺，就好像有一股力量正從我身上爆發出來。要告訴您的是，我絕對不是生病。這並不是一般你所以為的作噁，如同生病時或喝太多酒一樣，它比較像是一種喜出望外的感覺。就像是當我拿到我的考試成績，並發現成績出乎預料的好那種感覺！它就像是那帶有愉快的緊張感......
3) I had ridiculous amounts of energy - going without
sleep for days but looking and functioning fine.
那時我擁有極誇張的能量--可以幾天不睡，且外在看起來或做事都沒有問題！
4) I had to do my Yoga practice every single day. My
body cries for it, and every practice led me to firmer
grounds, firmer beliefs, and more light. And day after
day I seemed younger in the mirror! People start commenting
that I looked younger than before I went India.
我每天必須做我的瑜珈修練。我的身體為瑜珈癡狂。每個練習都將我導向更堅定的立場，更堅強的信念以及更加光明。隨著一天一天的過去，在鏡子裡的我似乎更年輕了。有人甚至說我比去印度前更加年輕。
5) My dreams started to get more and more conscious.
It took me some time to consolidate my kundalini experiences,
make sense of them and put them into writing.
我對我的夢境開始越來越有覺知了。我花了些許時間才統合我的拙火經驗，理解它們並把它們記錄下來。
What was happening, was simply the latent energy being
unleashed, and started healing me from within. Deep
physical, mental and especially emotional junk were
uprooted and discarded for good. The Kundalini energy
is simply my body's inherent intelligence released,
and the first thing it does is to start cleansing and
healing within me.
正在運作的事情就是潛伏的能量正在釋放中，並開始從內在療癒我。深層的身體，心智，以及特別是情緒的垃圾被連根拔除並永遠丟棄。拙火能量就是我身體與生俱來的智慧被釋放出來而已。而它為我所做的第一件事就是開始淨化和療癒內在的我。
Since the awakening in India I kept on practicing every
day without fail. And as each day passes by, I started
to be able to "feel" the energy rising from
the spine root, and even move the energy around the
body.
自從在印度拙火覺醒後，我每天練習瑜珈不中斷。隨著一天天的過去，我開始能夠感覺到那股從脊骨底竄升的能量，甚至它在我身體各處流動都可感覺到。
In Science, this is simply explained as the power of
mind focus. The vibration of thoughts can be indicated
in hi-tech measuring equipment. This is in essence,
energy - and it is the same as the spiraling energy
rising from the spine. There is nothing mystical, mysterious,
religious or superstitious about it, so there is no
need to feel scared of the rocking.
在科學上這是被解釋為心智集中的力量。意念的波長可以在高科技的儀器上被偵測。本質上，這都是能量，就如同由脊椎上升呈螺旋狀的能量一樣。它與任何神秘的，不可思議的，宗教的或迷信的事物無關。所以不需要對它所產生的擺動感到害怕。
And as my body healed intensely on physical, mental
and emotional levels, the diarrhea and nausea lessened
and eventually disappeared.
當我的身體在肉體上，精神上和情緒上經過劇烈地療癒後，腹瀉和做噁就減輕，最後消失了。
My present experiences are incredibly beautiful -
我目前的體驗是不可思議地美好--
1) I have never been so clear headed before in my entire
life. I am so sure of what I am here in this life to
do, and it is simply unimaginable to be living any other
way.
我整個生命中從未這麼地清明。當下的我確實地感知此生要做什麼，也無需去想要過其他生活方式了。
2) Increasingly, I can sense vibrational fields of different
people and places. Some company make me happy, cheerful
and energised; while others make me tired, sleepy and
frustrated. And then I slide back a few steps from the
last I progressed. I already knew that energy is contagious,
it is now much more intense than before, but the good
thing is that I could recognize it straight away, and
I'm learning to deal with it with harmony. My mission
is to teach and share; how can I possibly live it if
I have to live like a hermit in a cave?!
漸漸地，我可以感知周遭不同的人和所在的頻率震動。和有些人的相處，會傳遞給我快樂、喜悅和活力，有些人則會是讓我感到疲累、昏沉和低落感，那我會不動聲色地退後幾步。因為我已清楚能量是具感染力。我比以往更強烈地感知到這點。好在我能馬上就釐清，並學習著做好自我協調。既然我的使命是教學者和分享者，我怎麼可能生活地只像位住在洞穴的隱士？！
3) I can take in energy from people with high spiritual
energy - eg whenever I speak to Swamiji on the phone,
I can literally breathe in his voice! And with each
breath I take I feel stronger. The same goes with some
other friends who are aligned with their truth. It is
like charging my handphone battery!
我可以接收來自具有高靈能的人的能量。例如：每當我在電話中和畢迪安納上師通話時，我的呼吸貼合著他的聲音。隨著每一個呼吸，我感覺到越來越強壯。這樣的狀況也同樣發生在我的其他奉行真理的朋友中。這就像對我的手機電池充電一般。
4) The latest discovery which blew me away is that
- I can feel energy from blooming flowers! I was walking
down some shops one day last week, and a sudden urge
made me turn my head. I saw a florist and I just simply
HAVE to buy some flowers, I just didn't know why. When
I carried the bunch of chrysanthemums and sunflowers
in my arms, I felt soooo drawn to them! I could not
wait to smother my face in the blooms, I thought I'd
went mad, and called Swamiji right away :) He simply
laughed and said that its no shock because Life, Divine,
Love, Truth, Light is all present in trees and flowers.
最近一個震驚我的發現是，我可以感覺到來自正在開的花的能量。上周的某一天我沿著店面走，突然間的一股衝動使我轉頭。我看到一間花店，然後我就"必須"買些花。我也不知道為什麼。當我提著菊花和向日葵混合的一束花在我手臂上時我，感覺到非常被它們所著迷。我忍不住想把我整個臉塞放入花中。我以為我瘋了，所以馬上打電話給上師。他只是笑了並說，不要感到驚訝，因為生命、神聖性、愛、真理、光都可以在樹和花中呈現。
5) Sleep has become almost an adventure! I know distinctively
that there are some really happening events going on
in the other side. Right now, I'm slowly recalling more
and more of the dreams, backwards style, by pulling
out slowly the "events" in a reverse order.
Pretty challenging, but definitely fun! And I'm absolutely
convinced that there are many dimensions of Existence
happening simultaneously. Time is an illusion - it is
only a limit in this dimension. There is no such thing
as time, start/end. In the other dimensions, we are
all inter-related too, sometimes different relations,
sometimes same as this dimension, some is doing different
activities at a earlier or later "time", and
some operating on entirely different and incredible
universes - which is my personal favorite! Yes there
are amazing, exhilarating worlds beyond our physical
dimension.
睡覺幾乎已成為一項冒險活動！我可以區辨出有些真實的事正在某處進行著。我慢慢地記起越來越多的夢境。就像倒帶一樣，事件往後慢慢的重演，非常的具挑戰性，但絕對有趣！且我絕對相信有許多其它存在的空間正同時再發生。時間是一個幻覺。它只是侷限在這個向度裡。根本沒有時間這種東西(開始/結束)。在其他的空間中，我們全都內在相關聯的。有時候不同國家，有時候在同一個空間中，有些人在較早或較晚的時間做不同的事情，並且有些人操作在一個完全不同且不可思議的領域中，我最喜歡這部分。沒錯，存在著驚奇的且令人振奮的世界，那是超越我們的物質空間的。
Increasingly, I started to notice more and more people
waking up to a deeper sense of living. More people are
also feeling the pressures and disturbances of the Aquarian
Ages, and until they discover what's within them, continue
to be stuck in frustration. At the same time, there
are "spiritual warriors" all over the world
who are sprung up to join this pro-awakening campaign.
They can be operating from all walks of life - businesses
which truly deliver value, education for empowerment,
kids development, healing, lifestyle, global protection,
organic farming etc! It is both encouraging and delightful
to watch out for these everyday!
漸漸地，我開始注意到愈來愈多的人正開始邁向更深層的生命觀探索。更多的人也正感覺到寶瓶宮時代的壓力和混亂。除非他們覺察至內在深處，否則將繼續被困在挫折之中。在這同時,有些遍佈世界的「靈性戰士」出現來參加這次的正向覺醒活動。他們可能正在從事生活各階層運作，包含真實地傳遞價值、具提升能力的教育、孩子發展、療癒、生活方式、全球保護、有機農業等！每天密切注意這些活動是多麼激勵人心和快樂！
To write these experiences of mine, it takes courage,
total relinquishment of how the conventional world is
going to see me, and a desire. A desire to unite and
connect to all the awakened newbies of our planet. We
are like the transitional workers, to ease the transition
of the current system into a New Consciousness. In the
new world, things will be absolutely different from
how it is right now. Every being will be an empowered,
dynamic, aligned and awakened spirit. I don't know how
incredible it is going to be, but 1 thing I know for
sure is that everyone can look everyone in the eyes
deeply and genuinely, everybody will be able to connect
and share the truth and the love.
寫出我的經驗是需要勇氣的，也就是必須放下世俗世界如何看待我和我的渴望。渴望著一個想要整合和連結地球上所有已覺醒重生的人。我們就像變革者，身負著將現行制度融洽的轉化成新意識流的過程。在新的世界裡，事物將是絕對的不同於現今的樣子。每個存在會是一個被賦與力量，具動力，具一致性和覺醒的靈魂。我不知道它將會是多麼的不可思議，但有一件事情是我確定的，每個人可以確實地洞見到彼此更深沉的內在，藉由彼此不二地連結，分享真理和愛。
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